My young adult children tell me Im a control freak.  Come to think of it a perfect stranger told this once also at a New Age festival- I think he was selling the anti control freak elixir  in a bottle!!!! I didnt buy it.  Im coming to understand this addiction to control a little better and its this quest for everything to be perfectly well and good.  I know its through good intention that I set out to make sure everyone has clean socks and freshly squeezed juice in the mornings and it bothers me greatly if the kids walk out the door without a fabulous breakfast and a glass of green barley-spirilina-magnesium-Macca mix, so this is where my control freakism needs to get a grip.  Its my fear of life not being perfect in as much as what I have the ability to have a hand in keeping perfect.So the card I picked today from the amazing Christiane Northrup’s tarot deck was this;

Perfection vs imperfection

“Perfection is a fleeting illusion.  It exists for only a moment in time.  Requiring perfection can become an addiction that keeps you from creating more fully and abundantly.  Fix the flaws you can fix, then relax.  Release your perfectionism.  The process of life is always changing.  Demanding perfection holds the universe in a straightjacket”.

Ummmmmmm – how does that resonate for you right now.

Christiane Northrup M.D.  Women’s Bodies, Women’s Wisdom

Well yesterday was my birthday and  I don’t feel the need to greatly celebrate each and every birthday, but the best gift I was given yesterday was having my kids sing to me and being taken out for lunch by my sista.  I was then lavished to one of the best meals ever cooked by my mum.  I slept so peacefully last night.

Of course there are significant milestones and actually soon it will be the birthday celebration of our firstborn becoming 18.  I have given much thought consciously to this day.  I have been reminded down to the last second by her exactly when she will be 18.  She has booked her driving test, organised the party and is excited beyond words!!!

What I want to let her know is that she is so incredibly loved, honoured and cherished by family and friends.  I want her to know that we are proud parents,  that we have stood in awe at the achievements she has chosen to make, the decisions that she has sat with, the lessons shes learnt from them.  As I sat with her the other evening I let her know this and I also let her know that with age comes different responsibilities and privileges.  I let her know that her dad and I delight in watching her spread her wings in this big world and will always be here to support her.  I let her know that its sometimes really nice to not be too grown up- just to be a kid no matter what her age.    I reminded her that we will always be a listening post because no matter what your age you need to know there’s someone to bounce things off and who will give you an ear to listen.

In essence I gave her permission to explore this great world respectfully courageously sensibly ( and not so sensibly!) always knowing that her place is snug in our hearts.  Happy Birthday our baby girl.

We have just spent 3 days up at my in laws at Beechworth.  I so love this area of the world and always feel like Ive had time out when Ive been there.  So this time we were going up to give the family some help with fire prevention and general cleaning up.  The relationships of in laws can at times be worse than the jokes made about them, but for the most part the bumps get better over time and my in laws are good hearted people that have helped many over time.  It was nice to get up there and give back.  We weeded gardens, chopped wood swept paths, took loads to the tip, decluttered and had a great time.  Our 15 year old son is a beautiful respectful and hard working young man and it was a delight to watch him give time and love to his grandparents.  His mumma said once to him how much she really appreciated his efforts and he replied’ Mumma I love doing it so it doesn’t seem like work”   I say this with hand on heart.  He gave him self driving lessons around their block and drove the ride on mower with trailer everywhere it needed to go, moving wood and hay bales.  We were fed hearty country meals and played scrabble in the evening.  We had a holiday of giving and receiving and it was beautiful.  Its good to remember that a gift is not always wrapped in glittery paper but in a full heart xxx